Whiskey on the Rox

101 things in 1001 days

2010-06-06T02:14:00.000-07:00

Reason: Using the ever fascinating tool bar named StumbleUpon! I discovered a really great blog called oh, hello friend: an inspiration blog. After admiring her photography section, I found her 101 list on her blog and realized that I have a passion for making checklists and the wonderful feeling of accomplishment. So I suppose this also helps Danni cross of #49 on her list (encourage someone to make a list). Cheers!

start date: Monday, June 7, 2010

end date: Monday, July 25, 2011

+ FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS

01.

02.
03.

04.

05.

06.

07.

08.
09.

10.

11.

12.

13.
14.
15.

16.

+ CREATIVE & LEARN

+ ENTERTAINMENT & TRAVEL

+ ORGANIZE

+ FOR MYSELF

+ FOR OTHERS

+ FUN

+ BUSINESS & CAREER & MONEY

SOMETIMES..

2010-05-04T08:03:00.000-07:00

Ignorance is bliss..I am just ranting but sometimes knowing something is even worse because it simply eats your heart away. One bite at a time.

Because I am now aware of certain things that were said and done, I will never be able to do certain things for you or say certain things to you because I feel like it's not "special" anymore - it's been done.

I also don't want to remind you of everything she's done for you...it just kills me because I can't be myself...

She was the love of your life and your true love, wasn't she? She was the girl for you, wasn't she? She was everything you ever wanted, and you said you will always love her. And that, I know, still is a well kept promise. It's one that will never, ever change.

Perhaps I'm a masochist, but this pain keeps my optimistic self in check with reality. I don't know why I constantly do this to beat myself with all these information, it's sickening really. But I am only trying to protect myself because I am so tired of getting fucked over....

Would you trust yourself if you were in my position? Would you trust me if you read the fb conversation about waiting for girls to grace your hotel room?

Apples & Trees

2010-04-07T06:09:00.000-07:00

phocks.org

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

Thanks

2010-02-05T19:25:00.001-08:00

I am just so happy that...
- whenever one door closes, another one opens;
- some people are just simply amazing and how I wish I knew them sooner...but better late than never!
- I get to love and be loved in return...

February 5, 2010.. Not too shabby after all.

Victoria's Secret

2009-12-28T04:29:00.000-08:00

Look catalog and runway sexy with my easy tips to look like a Victoria’s Secret model any day of the week!

1. This look is really the VS model on her way to work. Not the complete underwear look! But this will have people thinking you’re a VS model.

BODY:
Try to get in a 30 minute aerobic workout everyday! Do something you enjoy to stick with it. Try belly dancing, yoga, kickboxing or my favorite…dancing! Stretch for at least 15 minutes before and after and drink plenty of water. While we all can’t be 6 feet tall and 120 lbs, we can look good at our own healthy weight and be healthy. Then we get to work what we got with confidence!

2. DIET:
Try to eat fresh fruits and vegetables, lean fish and chicken and healthy snacks. Keep a log of what you eat everyday.

3. BEAUTY:
First, you need big bouncy…hair! (We’ll get to the other bounce later) For a shortcut to that luscious mane, blow dry your hair upside down, then place Velcro rollers throughout and leave them on for 15 minutes. Take them out and you’ll have a big, full mane! For those with short hair (like me) add a ponytail extension or have a cute wig for the same look!

4. Now the other bounce…the “girls”. VS models flaunt their goods, but you can do the same and still be modest AND sexy. Invest in a good fitting bra. If you have never been fit for a bra, get a professional fitting. Try on different styles until you find the right one. I love the balconette cut neckline that Scarlet Johansson usually wears in her dress. Get a balconette bra for instant sexiness.

5. Make-up should be fresh and feminine. Try a pinky blush like Nars Orgasm ;) for a natural look, then use a red lip stain for a bitten look. That and some black mascara is really all you need.

6. FASHION:

Get matching underwear to avoid the “superhero” effect which is basically wearing panties that don’t match your bra. Anyone who has been guilty of this crime please raise your hands. (Mine’s up too)

7. Try some skinny jeans that fit well. For curvy girls, wear these with knee boots. For slim girls, wear heels.

8. Wear a black or white fitted tee. Why not wear a Victoria’s Secret one that says SEXY or Victoria’s Secret? It’ll look like you’re on your way to a photo shoot!

9. Get a cropped jacket. Either a leather jacket, ski coat or pea coat. Make sure it hits at the waist or a little higher.

10. Add a little sweet perfume like Coco Chanel Mademoiselle or Amarige Givency behind your ears and get ready to turn heads everywhere you go!

Miranda Kerr’s diet consists mostly of carbohydrates and lean protein-rich foods, such as egg whites, cottage cheese, oatmeal, vegetables, muesli, fruit and, of course, yogurt. For lunch she has something very light, like a salad with chicken or fish, while dinner mainly consists of fish, turkey or chicken and, of course, vegetables. Her workout is usually a combination of exercises targeting all muscle groups, but which places emphasis on her legs. Thus, Gelband says, Kerr does 30 minutes on her legs, 30 on her core, arms and balance, and 15 minutes on stretching afterwards. To keep her legs lean and toned (and, of course, cellulite-free), Miranda also does a 5-kilometer run and weight work, plus some boxing on the side.

HEIDI KLUM'S DIET Klum's day started with a protein shake (180 calories), followed at 10 a.m. by a 4-egg-white omelet with vegetables. Lunch might be broccoli sauteed in a teaspoon of olive oil, skinless chicken and salad. May be 10-12 raw almonds as a 4 p.m. snack. For dinner, Klum might have another protein shake, or a small meal like a cup of turkey chili. On the low-carb diet's list of no-no's: corn on the cob and pasta, which were replaced with lentils or kidney beans. At some things, however, Klum balked. "If I want a banana," she says firmly, "I eat a banana."

Beyonce's lemonade recipe:

-Organic Lemons
-Grade B Organic Maple Syrup (not the maple syrup on the breakfast table)
-Cayenne Pepper (preferably powdered instead of capsules)
-Unrefined Sea Salt
-Filtered Water

To prepare one serving of the Lemonade Diet Recipe drink, you would require

-2 tablespoons of lemon juice
-2 tablespoons of maple syrup
-1/10 tablespoons of cayenne pepper
-10 oz of filtered water

You should consume from 6 - 12 servings of lemonade drink a day for either 3 day or 10 day.

2009 in a nutshell.

2009-12-27T23:28:00.000-08:00

2009 is coming to an end. I'm thinking about the good and the bad and what's bad is there's a bad following every good and a good lacking for every bad..

Serious imbalance.

Death. Michael Jackson, Patrick Swayze, Farrah Fawcet - btw, sad because her death got drowned out by MJ mourners..
Friends. Losing a handful but only to realize that it's good because I now know who's going to be there and who's not..
Car accidents.
Bank statement :(
Broken laptop

Now the good:)

LOOKBOOK.nu
Mark. Best boyfriend everrrr.
Boston & Baltimore trip!
Thanksgiving with relatives
Money
Youtube
Having awesome best friends. Megan, Sophia, Connie, Gabby, Arianne, Becka etc.
Coffee! esp Starbucks
Discounts / friendly sales who give employee discount.

MJ.

2009-08-29T11:41:00.000-07:00

心理測驗 [ 感情女生 ] 妳是一個好命的女人嗎

2009-08-15T01:38:00.001-07:00

如果命運是一條車道，我們來玩一個開車的遊戲，請「不假思索」的回答下列問題!

1.如果妳有一個家財萬貫的情人，決定送妳一輛車當生日禮物，妳會（已婚的也請回到未婚的時代吧）
A.拒絕。表示自己不是愛他的錢，或不想欠他人情
B.當下很愉快的接受他的好意，問他是什麼車
C.半推半就的接受他的好意，日後會想要做等值的回報

2.假如妳個人名下有一部車，在不考慮車價因素，妳希望它是
A.敞篷跑車
B.大型休旅車
C.雙B房車
D.一般平價的房車

3.如果妳一個人開車上路，忽然車拋錨了，妳第一個電話會打給:（請假設以下四個關係妳都擁有）
A.男友
B.家人
C.某個可能知道如何幫妳解決問題的友人
D.特約拖吊廠

4.萬一妳隨著一大群車陣紅燈右轉，別人都很順利，卻只有妳被交警攔了下來，妳會
A.跟警察辯論，為什麼妳不抓別人只抓我
B.跟警察道歉，乖乖受罰
C.企圖艾薩克嬌來免罰
D.沉默以對，覺得自己很倒楣

5.周休二日時，如果妳和男友第一次要開這部車出去玩，妳會希望怎麼玩
A.兩人一起到人跡罕至的山林間探險
B.兩人一起到知名風景區做一日游
C.直駛外縣市的五星級飯店度假
D.呼朋引伴，希望有親朋或好友同游，去哪兒都好

1.家財萬貫的情人，送妳一輛車當生日禮物，妳的選擇代表的意義是
A.拒絕。表示自己不是愛他的錢，或不想欠他：妳是個受了傳統家教的女孩，妳的尊嚴重於一切。然而，久而久之，妳很可能讓男人覺得妳並不需要他。妳很難從兩性中得到男人給妳的好處。
B.當下很愉快的接受他的好意：妳向來天真活潑也很討男人歡喜，習於接受男性的幫助，在兩性關係中從來不吃虧。萬萬不要以為自己會有為了愛情不要麵包的一天。
C.接受他的好意，但日後會想要在精神上有等值的回報：在妳的觀念裡，精神和物質的界線是很模糊的，只要男人一對妳好，或曾經對妳好，妳就會對他死心塌地。

2.妳選的車代表妳在人生中最重視的
A.敞篷跑車：妳最愛的是自由，自認為與眾不同，應該擁有不平凡的人生。
B.大型休旅車：妳喜歡所有實用的東西，平常對美食與外表的重視，遠遠超過精神上的成長。
C.雙B房車：妳最愛的東西是面子，永遠跟隨主流社會的價值觀。
D.一般平價的房車：覓得良人是妳人生中最重要的目的。妳認為，如果沒有圓滿的家庭，其他的成功對妳都沒有意義。

3.妳一個人開車上路，車拋錨了，妳第一個打電話的對象，表示妳的獨立性
A.男友：獨立性五十分。在妳的內心中，妳覺得男人該幫妳解決一切大問題，什麼事妳也都會先找自己的男人商量。妳想要一個能扛起妳的天空的男人，不過，即使妳的男人很有責任感，妳的依賴性也會讓他傷腦筋。非不得已，妳才想要靠自己。
B.家人：獨立性三十分。由於妳在幸福家庭中長大，與家人關係密切，妳心中一直有個沒長大的小孩。妳無法跟任何家人反對的對象交往太久。但因為妳較無主見，在婚姻中常會被家人的意見弄得失去自己，也會讓另一半覺得困擾。
C.某個可能知道如何幫妳解決問題的友人：獨立性七十分。妳擁有良好的人際關係，個性十分的「四海皆兄弟」，很容易在事業上獲得成功。但那也可能是因為家庭從來不能提供妳庇護，而男人也多半讓妳失望。
D.特約拖吊廠：獨立性九十分。妳是個明快果決很有處理困境能力的女人。請多期許自己一些，大材小用就太可惜了。

4.妳隨著一大群車陣紅燈右轉，別人都很順利，卻只有妳被交警攔了下來，從妳的作法可以看出妳會不會為自己爭取權利
A.跟警察辯論，為什麼妳不抓別人只抓我？：這是很不智的作法，因為雖然外界環境對妳不公平，但妳常常採取莽撞衝動的方式，使自己在不公平的環境中更陷於不利。
B.跟警察道歉，乖乖受罰：其實妳知道這樣做還有機會將損失降到最低，妳是個理智而正直的人，很懂得如何察言觀色、化險為夷。吃虧後妳雖然不太會反擊，但永不忘記前車之鑒。
C.企圖艾薩克嬌來免罰：妳總是沒忘了利用女性的特質來享受特權。外柔內剛，遇到不公平的環境，也會讓自己的損失降到最低。
D.沉默以對，覺得自己倒楣：當環境不公時，妳逆來順受的能力超強，遇到命運不公時常以自責取代行動力，但可要小心火山爆發哦！

5.周休二日時，妳和男友第一次開車出去玩，妳希望的玩法代表妳對婚姻的期望
A.兩人一起到人跡罕至的山林間探險：妳對婚姻有憧憬，但只想到要享受兩個人的生活，不想跟任何長輩同住，有沒有小孩無所謂，兩個人能夠互相需要。
B.兩人一起到知名風景區做一日游：妳渴望婚姻，但想得很簡單，只要能夠找到一個妳可以接受的男人就好，妳對婚姻品質的要求並不特別。
C.直駛某個五星級飯店度假：妳渴望過著舒服的生活，對生活的品質要求很高，如果結了婚後妳過的日子沒有未婚時舒服，妳會很失望。
D.呼朋引伴，希望有親朋或好友同游，去哪兒都好：妳最不喜歡孤單，可以接受大家庭的熱熱鬧鬧喳喳呼呼，較能適應傳統家庭的結構。妳一進入家庭就會變成「人生以服務為目的」。

To M

2009-06-25T03:50:00.000-07:00

You're my special someone - and you have been for quite some time now too.
I love you, so much, for everything do and everything that you are.
Thank you for those hugs, those small breakfast dates from early 2009, countless Farmer's Market brunches, an exasperated exclamation because we ordered the same damn food again...
Thank you for cuddling me when I know you just want to roll over and pass out, for apologizing when it's clearly my fault - but you apologize anyway because you know I am upset, for kissing me in the middle of the night when you're pulling the covers...
Thank you for round two's, for always doing the most outrageous and ridiculous activities with me just to make me happy (ie, skipping across Mill's Lawn & coloring in Disney's princess coloring book), for adjusting so your lips touch mine when we fall asleep so it's like we're kissing.
Thank you for worrying about me when I don't get enough sleep or finish my homework on time.
Thank you for picking me flowers and learning how to do miscellaneous tasks just to make me happy.
Thank you for telling me: You can call me anytime you get lonely/bored/miss me.
Thank you for being there when I need you; from bringing me my flip flops to staying with me when you clearly had to be somewhere on the night we had our second kiss.
I miss you, so much.
Thank you for picking up my calls when you can't, and for staying on the phone with me when I have nightmares.
Thank you for saying the sweetest and most adorable words to me. You, are amazing.
And I love you just as much - if not more.
I know sometimes I don't show how much I appreciate it with my immature tantrums but really, you are the world to me.

I love you, Mark.

you think you know me but you, have no idea.

2009-06-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

describe your personal style.
what are the staples in your wardrobe?
what’s your signature look?
what inspires you?
who is your fashion muse?
favorite purchase of all time?
biggest splurge?
what’s your beauty routine?
what jewelry do you never take off?
what are you wishing for?
what are your obsessions?

Shop, Buy, Store.

2009-06-21T22:12:00.000-07:00

Shoebby
$5.99 per box

Couture.

2009-06-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

緣份的鑰匙

2009-06-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

相遇就像拿到一把開啟緣份的鑰匙

有的時候當你想要的時候，老天卻不肯給你
有的時候當你不想要的時候，卻有一把閃閃發亮的掉在你的面前
有的時候老天不小心給錯了鑰匙，於是命運讓你們只能萍水相逢
有的時候老天像小孩般嬉鬧，故意多給了另外一個人相同的鑰匙
有的時候老天見你不珍惜，變了戲法拿回你的鑰匙

緣份沒有對錯，相遇就是一種機會
如果你不開門，我們都不曾知道，手上那把鑰匙是不是正確的

Pets =)

2009-06-09T02:03:00.000-07:00

Love those Russian Blues. If I get cats, they'll be the ones I get.

I'd like to see the reaction on some would-be burglar's face when they see THAT looking back at him. It would be a blast to have a Great Dane or English Mastiff. They have a happy personality and scare the crap out of people even though they are big friendly fiants. Bonus: Less shedding.

Winston Churchill is rumored to have said: "I like pigs. Dogs look up to us. Cats look down on us. Pigs treat us as equals."

Foodism.

2009-06-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

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Hrmm..

2009-06-02T23:34:00.000-07:00

Clairol nice n' easy

119C Natural Dark Spice
130 Medium Reddish Brown

L'Oreal natural match color

creme gloss 4n dark brown

Daaaanger.

2009-06-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

atelier swarovski

FETISH[oes]

2009-05-31T23:28:00.000-07:00

A peek in my bag...

2009-05-11T21:26:00.000-07:00

Meyers vs Rice

2009-05-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

Taken from here.

This is a weird idea i've had in my head for a while. I thought i'd share it with you.

FADE IN:
EXT. A STREET IN NEW ORLEANS, PRESENT DAY-NIGHT
LESTAT DE LIONCOURT, a beautiful seductive blond vampire is walking down a deserted street in the French Quarter. He is looking for his latest kill. There is no one else on the street with him.
Or is there? Footsteps are heard int he distance. Lestat turns. A victim? Lestat hides in the shadows and pounces on the boy walking down the street. there is a scuttle, Lestat pins him to the floor, and just as he is about to feed on him, the boy speaks.
BOY
Don't! I'm one of you!
LESTAT
(Speaks like a cross between a new orleans boatman and Sam Spade. )
What do you mean?
BOY
I'm a vampire! My name is Edward Cullen.
LESTAT
I'm sorry! My name's Lestat de Lioncourt. I mistook you for a human. Come, hunt with me.
EDWARD
I'm sorry, i'd love to, but i don't drink human blood.
LESTAT
(moment of silence)
Don't drink human blood? How do you survive?
EDWARD
Every week my father takes me and my family hunting, and we drink animal blood.
LESTAT
(moment of silence. then laughs histerically)
Animal blood! Animal blood! But human blood is so tasty--the act of taking it is so sensual, better than sex. Many a fine hour have i spent feasting on mortals! It is what we vampires are for. And you're seventy years old and still living with a coven! Vampires are solitary creatures, there's no way we can coexist!
EDWARD
Not me! I am in love with a mortal and i will not drink human blood!
LESTAT
In love....with a mortal?
EDWARD
Her name is Bella Swan.
LESTAT
I see...but surely you're planning on turning her?
EDWARD
I will never share my curse with Bella! I love her too much.
LESTAT
Vampirism is not a curse! You must enjoy your immortality. ( pause) You remind me of Louis. Except not as tortured and philosophical. You're a boring teenage version of Louis. Do you know that?
EDWARD
Who's Louis?
LESTAT
One of my lovers. Except not really. He's in love with Claudia. But she's dead, and it's kinda my fault. I'm madly in love with him. Because he reminds me of Nicolas. Also dead. My fault as well. But what do you know of this sort of thing, mon petit?
EDWARD
.....I tried to kill myself once.
LESTAT
So have i. Did you step into the sun? i did, only to find that due to consuming the blood of the mother of all vampires, i am too strong and cannot be killed. Therefore, i am doomed never to die, even if i want to.
EDWARD
I stepped into the sun so people would see me sparkling like diamonds and hopefully kill me.
LESTAT
You sparkle in sunlight....so you can go out during the day?
EDWARD
Sure, i do it all the time.
LESTAT
(lunges at Edward with all his preturnatural strengh)
You bastard! Do you know what i would do to see the sun again!
Don't you understand somehting, vampirism comes with benefits, such as immortality, telepathy, things like that, but it also comes at a price, and one of those is that YOU CANNOT SEE THE SUN, OR YOU DIE! That's what's wrong with your stupid vampires--it's too easy for you! You can surivie on miniscual amounts of blood--we have to kill to live. You can go out during the day--we burn if we see the sun. You can have sex--we are sterile. We are tortured souls--you play baseball.
EDWARD
Well we have warewolves chasing after us....
LESTAT
It's been done!
EDWARD
And i have an incurable thirst for my beloved's blood, a thirst so dangerous, i left her once to protect her and--
LESTAT
Oh, really? Is that the extent of your troubles? I awoke the Queen Of the Damed with my kick-ass violin playing, who then proceeded to destroy the world, while i watched helplessly. What have you ever done that coould constitute conflict?
EDWARD
THere was a vampire trying to feed on my girl once...
LESTAT
Laisse il! Let him! No one likes your stupid Bella anyway! Now Claudia, there's a fully developed charecter who has charecter traits other than ' is in love with Edward.'
EDWARD
But--
LESTAT
I have had enough of your angsty teenage vampire problems!
Lestat focuses really hard and sets Edward on fire, since he can do that since the third book. Edward burns uncontrollably from the inside out and dies. BELLA SWAN hears the rucus and runs out of the house.
BELLA
Edward! Oh, Edward!
Lestat pounces on the annoying teenage bitch and drinks her blood. He smacks his lips, fixes his hair, and gets up to go, setting both bodies on fire with his awesome power of pyrokenisis to destroy the evidence. Lestat then goes home and all the vampires celebrate with a huge vampire party that their angsty teenage rip offs are dead. Armand brings over Time Bandits to watch for the millionth time, and everyone hits him.
FADE OUT:
Just a little fantasy. What do you think?

Love Actually

2009-05-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

Fun fact: the relationships from Love Actually are meant to convey the many types of love. For example: love at first sight, unrequited love, infatuation, etc.

There are at least a dozen forms of love depicted in the movie:

Marital Love: Keira Knightley marrying her hubby

Unrequited Love: Keira Knightley and her husband's best friend

Love at First Sight: Hugh Grant (the Prime Minister) and his tea and biscuits server

Workplace Love: John and Judy, the standins for the sex scenes that fall in love while working together.

Familial Love: Liam Neeson and his (step)son deal with the grief of losing Mom

Physical Love: Colin (the British guy) comes to America to get up on hot girls from Wisconsin.

Long Distance Love: Colin Firth and his Portuguese helper:

Sacrificial Love: Laura Linney giving up her crush on her coworker to be with her institutionalized brother.

Cheatin' Love: Alan Rickman being tempted by his secretary.

Infatuation: Liam Neeson's stepson having a crush on the best singer in his class

Taken-for-Granted Love: Emma Thompson about to realize that her husband (Alan Rickman) is having an affair

Platonic Love: Bill Nighy (the rock and roll singer) and his manager:

(I thought these two were actually secretly in gay love, but Wikipedia says that it's platonic, so it must be true. Apparently, straight men like to get drunk and

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watch porn together.)

I've experienced 9 out of the 12 forms of love (as defined by Love Actually)... how about you?

L O V E..

2009-05-06T21:22:00.000-07:00

ENG 140: Micro-Theme yoga journal

2009-04-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

Sally Kempton’s article, Getting to Know You, talks about her journey to self-discovery. In this rapidly changing world, Kempton proposes thought provoking questions that help her explore her identity. Kempton continues to pursue the answer to her question–“what defines me?” (Kempton 59)—but it was not until years later that she discovered that her answer may not be as simple because she is more complex than she originally thought. The yoga philosophy text, Taittiriya Upanishad, described human beings with five layers which “interpenetrate[s] each other, encasing the soul like the layers of an onion” (Kempton 60). The five layers are: physical sheath, vital energy sheath, mental sheath, wisdom sheath, and bliss sheath. Kempton proposes exercise routines to help reach a deeper level in the sheaths and hopefully transcend into the bliss sheath to eventually realize that life is good.

Kempton points out that our identity is shaped by an unstable environment, causing our sense of self to be lost throughout the events, places, people, and other phenomenon that we encounter. However, I agree with that fact that with the knowledge of our layers we can adjust according as to what areas in ones attitude need to be adjusted. As Kempton struggles to define herself, she reveals the complexity of an individual, which is the primary challenge in exploring her core. Kempton explains how each sheath comes into play as a different identity, starting with the outermost layer known as the physical sheath.

For me personally, I have realized that when I am able to acknowledge my state and thus identify myself, I tend to be more content regardless of the emotions I am experiencing. During yoga sessions especially in shivasana, Theresa and Lezlie would remind us to make peace with ourselves: recognize and acknowledge what you are feeling and then let it go. The path to enlightenment is to be able to liberate my superficial needs from this world. When I hold on to such matters, my mind tends to become clustered and I would dwell in that level and end up preventing myself from proceeding to the next level closer to the core. For example, I remember the time my roommate woke me up by pounding on the door in the middle of the night, thinking the door is locked. I was furious with her inconsideration. She then left to party the rest of the night away, leaving me with futile attempts of falling back asleep. I was way too upset to calm myself down, but by breathing and acknowledging my state, I was able to adjust my attitude towards the situation. To know is to be, and thus in order to discover my inner self, I need to understand what I am experiencing.

After reading Kempton’s article, I am more conscious about how my attitude can influence my identity. As long as I am well-grounded into my beliefs and, as Kempton puts it, “my inner core of goodness” (Kempton 59), then losing my identity in any unstable environment would be not be possible.

Love the way you love me.

2009-03-22T01:34:00.001-07:00

It's nearly 6 am. At least in another good 30 minutes it would be...

I am lying in bed, thinking.
Of nothing else but you.
You make my bad day good and
my good day better.
If I should describe our relationship
It would, no doubt, be the ocean and the shore.
The constant attraction between us keeps us near each other
and we would never stop feeling that desire to be close.
Closer.

十二星座厲害在哪

2009-03-09T06:57:00.000-07:00

牡羊座
【工作能力】。牡羊座的人可以開創局面不畏艱難，越是人家說他做不到的，他越會去挑戰成扔馱H家看。

金牛座
【工作能力】。金牛座雖然不會像牡羊座一樣直接下戰帖，但是一定會用他自己的方法很快的克服困難給別人看。

雙子座
【聰明博學】。雙子座的人會認為別人都是構造簡單的笨蛋，只有自己才是構造複雜的聰明人，他常常會自己分裂成兩個腳色，自己跟自己辯論，所以基本上很多事情都已經想過了，所以可以很自豪。

巨蟹座
【心思細膩】。巨蟹座的人很了解異性在想什麼，感受性很敏銳，行動會讓人家覺得很貼心。

獅子座
【多才多藝】。獅子座的人通常都是說鬥唱樣樣精，所以小時後通常都會是才藝班上的第一名，而且他表現能力很好，天生風花雪月的東西就是很厲害。

處女座
【攢錢手段】。處女座的人會開創他的感官在現實生活當中，他會去發現別人的需要，然後會從中發現一些不完美且值得再去補強的地方，而這些都是商機處處，所以不管處女座的人本身執行能力如何，可是他的想法值得參考。

天秤座
【異性魅力】。天秤座的人到哪裡，都會要讓旁邊的人知道他人緣很好，人脈非常的廣，誰都會買他的帳，很罩得住，到哪裡都受歡迎，桃花運也是他會在同性中炫耀的事情。

天蠍座
【異性魅力】。天蠍座的人是屬於電力超強魅力無法擋型，到哪裡都要當最受歡迎的人，一定要把其他人的鋒頭壓下去。

射手座
【聰明博學】。射手座的人表面傻傻的，其實都是裝出來的，他很愛看書，如果認真的跟他引經據典的話，根本都辯不倒他，搞不好有時候還會來一段詩詞把人家嚇一大跳。

魔羯座
【攢錢手段】。魔羯座的人是屬於計劃高手型，而且他是屬於計劃很久，一次出擊就要成央A他不打沒把握的仗。

水瓶座
【心思細膩】。水瓶座的人心思細膩是在全方位，在所有的事情上，他可以觀察人家，而且條路分明的分析出人家想做什麼。

雙魚座
【多才多藝】。雙魚座的人天生藝術細胞很發達，只要學到對的東西，潛能就會發揮到極至，到令人驚艷的地步。

Tattoo Ideas

2009-03-07T20:59:00.000-08:00

Cho Ku Rei [Choke-koo-ray]

This symbol is used when you need to increase the power of Reiki energy. Takata Sensei called this the "Invocation of Universal Power."

Drawing Cho Ku Reiki in the counterclockwise position "increases" the energy of Reiki. Drawing Cho Ku Rei in the clockwise position "decreases" the energy of the client. Be careful which you choose to do.

The importance of parenting even when you aren't a parent.

2009-03-07T20:52:00.000-08:00

What I've discovered over spring break, is the tremendous influence that everything that surrounds us has upon every aspect of our lives. Amazing what some time off studying can do huh? Self-enlightenment is wonderful. Parenting for example, is a way to really screw up a kid for the rest of their lives. Abuse in all forms, neglect, too much praise, not enough praise, too much discipline, not enough discipline - parenting in general establishes the "core beliefs" with which kids (or rather I should just say PEOPLE) view the world and themselves. Such "core beliefs" are so "core" that we see them not as beliefs nor as something that was learned, but as a truth or a reality. These are the beliefs from where we get our "attitude" or "outlook on life" and the scary part is: it all starts with those influences of parenting.

If one were to think "life is a struggle" or "I'm powerless" such a person would find themselves impeded when it comes to difficulties in life because they feel like they are incapable by nature. We talk ourselves in to much of our anxiety by self-criticism, what-if thinking, or even perfectionist thinking and all this "self-talk" begins with our basic core beliefs of how we see ourselves and life.

Parenting, thus, becomes a heavy responsibility that I don't know if I'd ever be able to take on given what I've seen. But what I've realized is all of us are influences because of our interactions with our environment and those that are in it with us; we influence and in turn are influenced. In a way, we are parenting them and vice-versa. Society parents its people, whether it be a controlling authoritative government that strips its citizens of their freedoms and makes them believe they are incapable without a leader, or perhaps a liberal democracy that empowers the man and encourages each individual's freedom of choice.

I keep thinking back to Blue Scholar's lyrics, "eyes up to the sky she sighs 'i need nobody. true indeed sister, but you still need everybody because we hardly know ourselves if we know nobody else." For the longest time I didn't really agree, with some unfamiliarity with ourselves without other people is in a way the explanation of us as a product of all those influences even though we have the CONTROL (which is important) ultimately of how we react to such influences. We only grow, discover, and develop ourselves by reacting to the influences of life (the environment) - by society, by parents, and by people around us.

We've been parenting our whole lives. In a sense we've always been responsible for everyone around us and thus, in turn responsible and in control of ourselves.

With that, my last a thought: Without negative "core beliefs" impeding you, or in other words, if you knew you could not fail, what would you strive for?

I Like Where We Are

2009-03-04T08:36:00.000-08:00

I love God, Jesus, and the trinity's distinct as well as inseparable relationship. I believe in Him but I am not a Christian. I may be Buddhist too because I believe in self-enlightenment. When I went to church and heard that god is not the external authority figure, which is by the way, something I've somehow associated him as, but that he is in you as you are the temple of the holy ghost. Perhaps what I'm suggesting is ludicrous, but maybe in a way that is the same as SELF-enlightenment. From Evan Almighty, Morgan Freeman or "God" says to Joan (Evans wife)

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

God gives us these opportunities to better ourselves but it is ultimately your will to choose and grow from such choices. To me this is, in a way, SELF determination in a less aggressive sense. I think about religion so much and I always somehow end up no where, believing I could never encounter a balance or realization of which story (or in another sense, which religion,) is best told because they all sound so good wen I'm hearing it. Somehow I have this ability to appreciate each song/story/perspective and that's why sometimes I find myself unable to be mad at anyone and unable to decide what is right and what is wrong.

Perhaps the song G.O.D. (Gaining Ones Definition) - Common says it best .

Some say that God is Black and the Devil's White
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what's right
I fight, with myself in the ring of doubt and fear
The rain ain't gone, but I can still see clear

Because ultimately devil represents the bad the unappreciative unaware and God is what's right. He, she or it is what drives you. In a way,

Some say that God is ______ and the Devil's ______
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what's right.

I left the words blank because I wanted to make a point that it doesn't matter what you say after that if your god is Buddha, Allah, or God and the trinity.... without the story and the label it is ultimately the same drive; stories and labels just help people understand or tap access to the ideas or beliefs or decision makers as I like to think of them. I love this song so I really recommend listening to it for the lyrics since so many underground artists have proven the lyrics are deep and can really enlighten a situation giving you an insightful perspective.

I feel like all my thinking is "fight[ing] with myself in the ring of doubt and fear" and even though I haven't come to a set conclusion ("The rain aint gone") I really can "still see clear." I'm okay with this. I like where we are.

I feel so foolish thinking and trying to understand and absorb everything around me when I'm around people who don't because there's tension and expectations and closedness. Just a deeper understanding of yourself and others - enlightenment realizing the god in you and in others - opens up those blocked out obstructions to understanding of any perspective. The connection you feel with anything around you is great. It is because everything is made by god and all has god in them that you are connected. you won't discriminate or hold bad judgments as a grudge and won't even get mad as easily. After all, being mad is so bad for your health, because its not relaxing and understanding, this brings peace instead of war. Those who interpret God or Allah or Buddha as DIVIDING, classifying, and separating people by specifying an allegiance (like when answering questions from strangers regarding religious affiliation) you are SADLY mistaken (all, of course, is just my own opinion) because God ultimately should be an understanding unifying connecting loving force not one that divides......right? and I say force because it drives people toward where they should be or where would benefit them ultimately. one of my most admired friends, rob, once tried to explain to me how he felt. that god is the realization of something bigger than yourself. in his terms god is that realization of the sanctity of your choices, the sanctity of others and things around you because you are ultimately connected in a bigger way than yourself.

Understanding and wisdom became the rhythm that I played to
And became a slave to master self
A rich man is one with knowledge, happiness and his health

My mind had dealt with the books of Zen, Tao the lessons
Koran and the Bible, to me they all vital
And got truth within 'em, gotta read them boys
You just can't skim 'em, different branches of belief
But one root that stem 'em, but people of the venom try to trim 'em
And use religion as an emblem
When it should be a natural way of life
Who am I or they to say to whom you pray ain't right
That's who got you doin right and got you this far
Whether you say "in Jesus name" or Hum do Allah
Long as you know it's a bein' that's supreme to you
You let that show towards others in the things you do

When I feel myself in pain or facing a hardship I feel myself in the presence of the god in me and outside of me in other people and things and the world. Sometimes the irony in trying to fully understanding god will be so much work that it would be tedious and such a long drawl that it is almost a state of almost death. The amount of intense pain I feel when I try so hard to understand. It is painfully challenging but I crave to know and understand; it is in a way a crazy drug of bettering myself no matter what way.

When things get rough and each day is more dreary after the next, I am reminded that life goes on and some how it is alright to keep "happy" as a memory. After all, we are given by God the amazing ability to survive and adapt because life DOES keep going on. We don't have to keep the memory in the present because memories can be what memories should be. In a way, there's a beauty in the way that all works out.Those feelings and people and stories remain perfect in whatever they were - unchangeable. If we can't change the moment since each moment we pass is permanent. The beauty of the past and of life and time in general is in the perfection of its preservation without biasness. Good, bad, positive, negative - what happened happened right? and we're still moving forward! Unalterable, and somehow it's okay that way.

I like where we are.

Snow Patrol - The Planets Bend Between Us

2009-03-03T09:03:00.000-08:00

The winter's marked the earth
it's floored with frozen glass
you slip into my arms
and you quickly correct yourself

your freezing speech bubbles
seem to hold your words aloft
i want the smoky clouds of laughter
to swim about me forever more

(Chorus)
i will race you to the waterside
and from the edge of ireland shout out loud
so they could hear it in america
it's all for you

the shells crack under our shoes
like punctuation points
the planets bend between us
and a hundred million suns and stars

the sea filled in the silence
before you said those words
and now even in the darkness
i can see how happy you are

(Chorus)
i will race you to the waterside
and from the edge of ireland shout out loud
so they could hear it in america
it's all for you

(5x)
it's all for you

Tomorrow is another day

2009-02-16T14:43:00.001-08:00

I read this today and it got me thinking of how we all do it. We only pray in the times of need, hoping that God will be there to fix our problems or rekindle a broken relationship. we pray for a sick friend, the starving. We pray for ourselves when we need something. I mean, it's not that it's wrong, but what does He get in return?

I'm guilty of this myself. We need to pray in times of trouble but never forget to pray when things are going well. How often to you count your blessings? When you're having a bad day, of course it's not wrong to pray, but when you're having a good day, pray in to be appreciative, to be thankful for the people He put in your life that love and surround you. count your blessings. While it's good to pray for the starving or the sick, why not also do something about it? Bring them food, stay by the sick friends side. It's easy to say a few quick words to God, but it shows true character to show an act of kindness. If you pray-it's great to pray for those in need or for something you need in your life. But before you go to bed, also think of all your blessings.

And for those who don't pray, how many times do you hear people complain or say "I'm having such a bad day"? It's not wrong to state you're having a bad day, but how many times do you hear people say they're having a good day, or make a positive comment about things? Not nearly as much. It's all in your ability to turn a situation around. When you're having a bad day, laugh it off. Find something good in it. Tomorrow is another day. Just remember to be thankful for the days you have that are amazing. Pay attention to the good and the happy times you're having, not just the bad, and you'll be a happier person. ♥

Easy Come, Easy Go

2009-02-06T22:03:00.000-08:00

You know how whenever you first meet someone, the question crosses your mind: friend of foe?
I remember TB telling me how the first second you allow someone to be close to you, you have given them the permission to break you.
In the earliest stage, it isn't quite so bad, only little fibers of adoration that resemble silky spider web seems to link your brain and your heart to this object/character of desire. If you end it at this point, you can more or less just brush it off and move on.
Moving on to stage two, this is where those fibers start having little fish hooks on the ends and it takes more effort than a simple brushing off to detach by now.
The final stage of attachment is when the association is so strong, the fibers are no longer just thin strands, but is a rope composed of those fibers and the hooks are now rooted into your heart. When you yank the hooks out, there seems to be an eternal bleeding. The scar is hideous, and it seems as if your muscle has learned to grow around the hook that it does not help the situation whatsoever.

I really don't know how long we will last, how we will end, how many ups and downs we will go through...
But I'm hoping that I won't be disappointed, or that you won't hurt me.

Love isn't an easy come, easy go.

Another Eat, Pray, Love Quote

2009-01-23T10:41:00.000-08:00

…A true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you
everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own
attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most
important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and
smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever. Nah. Too painful.
Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself
to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it.

(pg. 149) Eat, Pray, Love

Some people believe that a person who comes into your life to help you grow is not someone you would want to live with because of the resistance to change. A true soul mate is not a fool, but a very wise being who will walk away when you refuse to change your ways.

It is sad that people think that real love means the happy fairy tale, but got to tell people what they want to hear to sell books I guess. No wonder the divorce rate is over 50% and number of single people is the highest it has ever been. If it involves work and suffering, it can’t possibly be love?

These days values, morals, and discipline is everything that’s bad for you because happiness is all about feeling good and doing what you want.

2009-01-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

"I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, and cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams, make love in the candle light, in the car, in the shower, in the woods while were lost. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you’re having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes and not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers, once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think "this might make my girl smile" as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got..."

Since the first time you ran your fingers through my hair, since the first time our hands became one, since the first time your kisses took away my pain, I knew I’d never be the same.

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know. -grey's anatomy
Please just dont give up on me. Because underneath all my mistakes, imperfections, and dissapointments, im just a simple girl who really does love you, and im sorry if sometimes im just a little to shy to show it.

You changed my world with just one smile, you took my heart with just one kiss.

A kiss is just a kiss till you find the one you love... a hug is just a hug till you find the one your always thinking of... a dream is just a dream till it comes true... love is just a word till it's proven to you.

Are we all more or less Carrie Bradshaw?

2008-11-20T06:03:00.000-08:00

While we shout directions at Carrie and get frustrated when she keeps going back to Big. I realize that maybe it's karma, maybe it's fate, or maybe simply we just can't move on because we KNOW there's so much more that 'we' can be.

What if we, all girls, have a Carrie living within ourselves and we all have our Mr. Big?

It seems like it's the only plausible explanation for nice girls who always go back to guys that are jerks (in disguise),

Either that....or we're just masochistic.

I am G(ood) F(or) N(othing).

2008-11-08T23:32:00.000-08:00

:(

Is it better to be with someone you love without being loved back or be with someone who loves you but you don't?

I am no longer sure..

With S, I was devastated because of the first.

Now......

Shit.

How did I get here?????

Because I'm shallow.

I love B. He makes me happy but so does C and most importantly he loves me; it's certain.

But cute enough isn't good enough!

I can't decide until we meet..:( I'm sorry.

----

What if S was right?

What if I am in love with love?

Dear You

2008-10-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

如果你真的喜歡我
我希望你能夠了解
我真的會等你

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that I can´t say what´s going on

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that I can´t see what´s going on

Sandspur Opinion Column #2

2008-10-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

Who said our soul mate has to be that one person? Maybe every person we encounter is a gift to us, they are sent to us to make us better in some way.
If nothing is ever created or destroyed in the universe, does that not mean we are the epitome forever? Let's jump back to what I talked about in my last post: we are composed of recycled 'being' of living beings.
Allow me to elaborate, let's say I, Roxanne Lo, am composed of 30% tree root, 10% moss, 35% stardust, 4% squirrel, 16% seashell etc. This is why I am more inclined to become friends with someone whose being has an equal amount of composition and why we feel complete and at ease with certain people.
If my friend (let's call her A) has 28% tree root in her system, our souls would be attracted and want to be near each other because in our past life, they were part of another being as a whole. This sense of unity brings us close together. We are best friends because our composition is at an almost identical 'frequency.'
I believe most people are aware some of their friends are comfortable with meeting new people and branching out whereas some are less comfortable doing so. This can be explained by the possibility of having a wide variety of element in a person's being because even the tiniest particle in their soul is strong enough to allow them to be interested by the other person, therefore compatible with someone even without having similar amount of composition.

Sandspur Opinion Column #1

2008-09-25T15:18:00.000-07:00

How long does a man live, after all?
Does he live a thousand days, or one only?
A week, or several centuries?
How long does a man spend dying?
What does it mean to say 'for ever'?
-Pablo Neruda

My friend Parker believes in "The Net" theory. "The Net" theory is how one experiences their reality, and our experiences are energy. As we continue on with our lives, our memory keeps

The universe is a place where time does not exist. What I mean is, instead of saying time is a flowing river, it is more accurate to say that it is a lake with millions and millions of tributaries. This theory enables time traveling because one would be "hopping" from one stream that is parallel to another.

Maybe our

This is one of my favorite poems and I constantly refer to it. Since we can all agree that nothing in the universe is ever created or destroyed, our being is recycled along with other beings' being. Maybe we are not looking for our soul mate but soul mates. Maybe those we hold near and dear are our soul mates. What does the term 'soul mate' mean anyway?

I believe that we are composed of a whole bunch of molecules of every being you can imagine that once existed on this planet, and through death, our being is mixed and reforms us as different individuals. What I'm getting at is: we are at ease and experience a kind of closeness with certain people because we used to be One.

Tattoos & Relationships

2008-09-16T22:25:00.001-07:00

"Beauty is Pain"

So says Bruce. What's the point of living if you don't have something to live for?

Thucydides

2008-09-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

Remember the battle between Athens and Spartans?

Well, after my philosophy class, this got me thinking about justice versus survival.

First of all, when would people put survival before justice? What about justice before survival?

Which one would you fight for? Something that is right? Well then, what IS considered right? Intuition? Environment?

Which would you choose?

Men VS Women

2008-09-08T11:21:00.001-07:00

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dEnNiS said:
hey
dEnNiS said:
i got ur text
dEnNiS said:
hahah
☀ я™ ;; said:
harro!
☀ я™ ;; said:
hahaha :D

dEnNiS says:
hahah wuts good?
☀ я™ ;; says:
nothing
☀ я™ ;; says:
my life sucks
☀ я™ ;; says:
i feel like such a tool.
☀ я™ ;; says:
fucking boys
☀ я™ ;; says:
hahaha
dEnNiS says:
awww we're not that bad
dEnNiS says:
hahah
☀ я™ ;; says:
haha
☀ я™ ;; says:
bad enough
☀ я™ ;; says:
lol
☀ я™ ;; says:
ahhh
dEnNiS says:
and y u say that?
dEnNiS says:
hahah
☀ я™ ;; says:
haha
☀ я™ ;; says:
i half kid.
☀ я™ ;; says:
i cant care less atm.
dEnNiS says:
hahahh and the other half?
dEnNiS says:
hahah
☀ я™ ;; says:
lol
☀ я™ ;; says:
men are frustrating
☀ я™ ;; says:
straight men.
dEnNiS says:
hahah women r too complicated
dEnNiS says:
and it makes us frustrated
dEnNiS says:
hahha
☀ я™ ;; says:
lol
☀ я™ ;; says:
only some women.
☀ я™ ;; says:
its a bad cycle
☀ я™ ;; says:
good women meet bad men who fuck them over
☀ я™ ;; says:
hence they become paranoid
☀ я™ ;; says:
and good men meet crazy women
☀ я™ ;; says:
who freak them out
dEnNiS says:
hahah
☀ я™ ;; says:
therefore everyone eventually becomes a jerk/bitch
dEnNiS says:
hahah sounds about rite

Forever Young

2008-09-07T09:19:00.000-07:00

Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is won

Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders we're getting in tune
The music's played by the mad men
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever young

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
Why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We let them come true
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?

Time & Timing

2008-09-04T13:41:00.000-07:00

Why is it that whenever something that is so wonderful, so splendid - a snow globe per se - can go awfully wrong just in the blink of an eye? For instance, a child playing a snow globe and it slips through her fingers.

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about.

Here's a story; the story of my life:
Girl likes boy #1, boy #2 likes girl, boy #1 just got out of a relationship and is still recovering, boy #2 likes girl but girl doesn't want to ruin the friendship. On top of that, boy #2 is way too far for girl's interest. Or needs.

I hate time. I really do.

PS Girl #2 is a pimp. Yes, she has 5 boys. Seriously.

Stupid Boys and Stupid Boy Penises

2008-08-28T13:22:00.000-07:00

I really need to vent. I feel so extremely naked because I can't express.
Dancing is an escape.
Singing is my escape.
Writing is an escape.
You were my escape.

I guess I missed out on the part where I was supposed to take note on emergency exits,
Just in case there's a fucking road block at the entrance.

---

Would you agree?
Some things you can't see with your eyes,
Only your heart.
Would you agree?
Some things you can't feel with your skin,
Only your heart.
So tell me,
How can you walk away,
Leaving me stranded,
Wasting away.
It's a long way down
When your hopes are as high as mountains.

Webster wouldn't be able to define
define the way I feel about you.
Maybe Heaven's not the paradise you go to when you die
But the very moment in life when you are actually alive.
I guess I missed out on the part where I was supposed to take note on emergency exits,
And now it's too late
Because you've drowned me in empty promises.

Tree, Leaf and Wind

2008-07-31T02:38:00.001-07:00

"What is the reason behind Leaf's departure? Is it Wind's pursuit or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"

"It's not as if Wind doesn't howl...it's because Leaf never wanted to leave Tree."

Maybe, I fear that I won't stay faithful.

Maybe, I fear that commitment is too much for me to handle.

What if a lot of dedication still isn't enough?

How much of enough is enough?

What if, I lost all my faith in relationships?

And trust?

Will I ever be able to really look behind the past?

None is certain,

I am still waiting for the day I can answer all this.

with a smile.

匹配的人

2008-07-31T02:38:00.000-07:00

妳對戀愛十分自信，抱著甯缺莫濫的態度，情願獨守空帷，直至有合適的人出現為止。
在讀書時代妳是個勤學的好學生，亦喜歡做學生領袖，由於妳性格較剛強好勝，因此有些男性會有點害怕妳，妳有時亦會太認真，霸道，且醋意太濃，這對妳的戀愛造成一定阻滯，能和妳相配的男人，必須英俊，聰明且很受人愛戴，是個鋒頭很勁的人。
最匹配的星座：巨蟹座，天蠍座和雙魚座
最佳男伴的生日：8，17，26。

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2008-07-29T20:58:00.000-07:00

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2008-07-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

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Rollins' R-Journalist Application - summer adventure essay

2008-07-23T08:06:00.000-07:00

Please write 500 to 1,000 words about your summer adventures (this will be featured as your first entry) and submit it along with this application and a recent photograph (head and shoulders).

My summer adventure of 2008 started with the following words: I became what I am today at the age of twelve, on a frigid overcast day in the winter of 1975...This summer, my journey to the Middle East unfolds as I travel in a time capsule, growing 3 decades old with the land with vibrant culture. I experienced Amir's guilt, Hassan's idealistic sacrificial and loyal love, Baba's uncertainty, Soraya's courage, Rahim's love, and the idea of religion, power of friendship and the unbreakable bond of blood. From Khaled Hosseini's The Kite Runner, I realized that my summer adventure is really another journey of self-growth.

Amir and Baba has never believed in God the way other Muslims did. In fact, they don't even pray. However, near the end of the novel when Sohrab comes into the picture, Amir begins to pray in a religion he once had no faith in. This reminds me of a quote, "Don't pray when it rains, if you don't pray when it shines." The Kite Runner fully depicts this statement and it struck me because I do it. I realize that I am guilty of this. More often than not, I only pray in times of need, hoping that God will be there to fix my problems or rekindle a broken relationship. I pray for a sick friend, the starving, the less fortunate and promise to give back to the society in return. We pray for ourselves when we need something. Even though there is nothing wrong with that, but I can't help but wonder...what does He get in return?

It seems rather common to pray in times of trouble but as time goes by and the gap in our life is mended, we forget to count our blessings. I realized a while ago even though it is good to pray for the starving or the sick, why not also do something about it? By donating food to organizations, visit and stay the sick - It is easy to say a few quick words to God, but it shows true character to show an act of kindness. I believe that eventually Amir's redemption has helped him realize that he needs to take action aside from asking help from the omnipotent.

Just like the way Rahim Khan's heartaches upon seeing Amir fight for Baba's love, I feel the same distress. Despite fate and its unexpected twist and turns, I understood the tremendous influence that everything that surrounds us has upon every aspect of our lives. Parenting, for example, is a way to really screw up a kid for the rest of their lives. Abuse in all forms, neglect, too much praise, not enough praise, too much discipline, not enough discipline - parenting in general establishes the "core beliefs" with which kids view the world and themselves. Such "core beliefs" are so "core" that individuals begin to see them not as beliefs nor as something that was learned, but as a form of truth or reality. These are the beliefs from where we get our "attitude" or "outlook on life" and the scary part is that it all starts with those influences of parenting. The Kite Runner is about two brothers, Amir and Hassan, who share an unbreakable binding vine of kinship despite all their differences, reared by a father who loved them differently. Without negative "core beliefs" impeding, or in other words, if one knows one could not fail, what would one strive for?

There was a point in the novel that helped me realize the immense impact of attitude on life. Attitude, as it seems to me, is more important than the past, the education, the money, the circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. The impact of attitude is especially apparent between Assef and those around him as he oppresses the others with his status and wealth. As a "proud" Taliban member, Assef executes God's will as he torments the Afghans. But what for? What I have learned at this point is obvious, there is a little bit of Amir, Hassan and Assef in all of us and it is up to us to reign our attitude and emotions.

As the story is gradually brought to an end, Amir’s narration shows raw emotions, he waddles on in his life through guilt. Hosseini continues to justify the hatred and frustration readers feel toward Amir by atoning for his sins as he runs Sohrab’s kite. The patience and love he has for Hassan’s son effaced into thin air towards the end of book, showing me that everyone deserves “a way to be good again.” Knowing that loveable Hassan would have happily forgiven Amir without hesitation, I learn that I am not one to judge but I am here to forgive and to redeem. And here’s to my family, my friends and everyone who has been there for me through thick and thin: “for you, a thousand times over.”

(photo editting credit Kory Eylmann)

Rollins' R-Journalist Application

2008-07-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

What makes you want to be an R-Journalist?
Ever since I first accessed Amazon.com, I remember that I was thrilled that the website enables user rating and comment for every product. I found this service very helpful as it allows the next consumer to get an idea of how this product stands on the market. For instance, if I were considering purchasing a laptop but still debating between the Dell model and Hewlett-Packard (HP) model, I can read the comments other users posted and compare both models. In a way, my Amazon experience reflects what I hope I can bring to prospective Rollins students: an honest, first-hand experience.

Please list student activities in which you participate.
As of now, I have yet to even set foot on campus! This means I have a lot of things to see, and places to go. However, I certainly wish to continue signing human rights petitions for Amnesty International. I am considering joining WPRK Radio, R-TV or Sandspur as I am striving towards a place in the communications field (broadcast journalism) in the future. All in all, I am just keeping my mind and options open to opportunities that will help me connect with the Rollins family.

What one quality do you think makes you best able to relate to potential Rollins students?
I am an understanding individual who can naturally see in a different perspective in any given situation. This allows me to genuinely express my opinion and give honest advice. Understanding different situations in many points of views enable me to easily relate to Rollins students because I can understand the frustration they experience when it comes to making a decision of where to call "home".

2008-09 R-Journalists will be trained to use Moveable Type software, a blogging tool, to submit their own entries and photos online. Entries will then be approved. Do you feel comfortable with computer blogging software and that you will be able to learn it to complete your assignments?
I am definitely up to the challenge to learn something new! I am confident that I will manage using Moveable Type for my blogging assignments; I am not exactly a shy individual and I won't hesitate to ask for help if I am stuck.

Being selected as an R-Journalist is a privilege, as well as a responsibility. R-Journalists are expected to complete at least 10 entries, no less than 500 words each, and submit three to four photos with each entry. Additionally, you may receive feedback and questions via e-mail from prospective students, parents, alumni or others. How do you plan to ensure you are able to fulfill your obligation, should you be chosen?
It is very likely for me to update my blog on a weekly basis. Aside the regular updates, special occasions such as scouting a good restaurant near campus or a home coming game, an extra update is to be expected.

Maybe our hearts were next in line & maybe everything breaks sometime

2008-07-21T20:10:00.000-07:00

Maybe people were right about the saying: The reason people hold on to memories is because they're the only thing that doesn't change when everything else changes.

Summer..

Sun. Check. Beach. Check. Ice cream. Romance. Check. Check.

Why am I complaining then? Perhaps I'm afraid of falling too hard.

What if...?

I guess I'm being paranoid. Yet again.

The thing is, how do you know when someone really likes you? What if you're merely a replacement of what they can't have?

I can't help but listen to that small voice in my head, that lingering foul past.

Ever since my father's departure from my life and settling with my half-sister, S and my breakup because he realized he likes our mutual friend, the guy who introduced us...Maybe shunning off feelings and cutting ties with emotions is the only way you can prevent yourself from hurting in this world.

Ha. If only I could just simply rip out my heart along with other irrationalities in me and bury it somewhere far, far away. Perhaps it'd be possible that one might be fearless.

After all, for once in my life, I'm scared. Terrified even. What if I'm only the second best? The replacement.

So...somewhere in the middle, I'm deciding...

You're only young once...go for it or better off to be safe than sorry

Seems to be a rather obvious choice, huh?

Whiskey on the Rox

101 things in 1001 days

SOMETIMES..

Apples & Trees

Thanks

Victoria's Secret

2009 in a nutshell.

MJ.

心理測驗 [ 感情 女生 ] 妳是一個好命的女人嗎

To M

you think you know me but you, have no idea.

Shop, Buy, Store.

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Couture.

緣份的鑰匙

Pets =)

Foodism.

Hrmm..

Daaaanger.

FETISH[oes]

A peek in my bag...

Meyers vs Rice

Taken from here.

Love Actually

L O V E..

ENG 140: Micro-Theme yoga journal

Love the way you love me.

十二星座厲害在哪

Tattoo Ideas

The importance of parenting even when you aren't a parent.

I Like Where We Are

Snow Patrol - The Planets Bend Between Us

Tomorrow is another day

Easy Come, Easy Go

Another Eat, Pray, Love Quote

Are we all more or less Carrie Bradshaw?

I am G(ood) F(or) N(othing).

Dear You

Sandspur Opinion Column #2

Sandspur Opinion Column #1

Tattoos & Relationships

Thucydides

Men VS Women

Forever Young

Time & Timing

Stupid Boys and Stupid Boy Penises

Tree, Leaf and Wind

匹配的人

Shopping Want List

BlackBerry® Curve 8320 VS BlackBerry® Curve 8310

Rollins' R-Journalist Application - summer adventure essay

Rollins' R-Journalist Application

Maybe our hearts were next in line & maybe everything breaks sometime

心理測驗 [ 感情女生 ] 妳是一個好命的女人嗎

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