Are we all more or less Carrie Bradshaw?

While we shout directions at Carrie and get frustrated when she keeps going back to Big. I realize that maybe it's karma, maybe it's fate, or maybe simply we just can't move on because we KNOW there's so much more that 'we' can be.

What if we, all girls, have a Carrie living within ourselves and we all have our Mr. Big?

It seems like it's the only plausible explanation for nice girls who always go back to guys that are jerks (in disguise),

Either that....or we're just masochistic.

I am G(ood) F(or) N(othing).

:(

Is it better to be with someone you love without being loved back or be with someone who loves you but you don't?

I am no longer sure..

With S, I was devastated because of the first.

Now......

Shit.

How did I get here?????

Because I'm shallow.

I love B. He makes me happy but so does C and most importantly he loves me; it's certain.

But cute enough isn't good enough!

I can't decide until we meet..:( I'm sorry.

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What if S was right?

What if I am in love with love?

Dear You

如果你真的喜歡我
我希望你能夠了解
我真的會等你


there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that I can´t say what´s going on

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that I can´t see what´s going on

Sandspur Opinion Column #2

Who said our soul mate has to be that one person? Maybe every person we encounter is a gift to us, they are sent to us to make us better in some way.
If nothing is ever created or destroyed in the universe, does that not mean we are the epitome forever? Let's jump back to what I talked about in my last post: we are composed of recycled 'being' of living beings.
Allow me to elaborate, let's say I, Roxanne Lo, am composed of 30% tree root, 10% moss, 35% stardust, 4% squirrel, 16% seashell etc. This is why I am more inclined to become friends with someone whose being has an equal amount of composition and why we feel complete and at ease with certain people.
If my friend (let's call her A) has 28% tree root in her system, our souls would be attracted and want to be near each other because in our past life, they were part of another being as a whole. This sense of unity brings us close together. We are best friends because our composition is at an almost identical 'frequency.'
I believe most people are aware some of their friends are comfortable with meeting new people and branching out whereas some are less comfortable doing so. This can be explained by the possibility of having a wide variety of element in a person's being because even the tiniest particle in their soul is strong enough to allow them to be interested by the other person, therefore compatible with someone even without having similar amount of composition.

Sandspur Opinion Column #1

How long does a man live, after all?
Does he live a thousand days, or one only?
A week, or several centuries?
How long does a man spend dying?
What does it mean to say 'for ever'?
-Pablo Neruda

My friend Parker believes in "The Net" theory. "The Net" theory is how one experiences their reality, and our experiences are energy. As we continue on with our lives, our memory keeps

The universe is a place where time does not exist. What I mean is, instead of saying time is a flowing river, it is more accurate to say that it is a lake with millions and millions of tributaries. This theory enables time traveling because one would be "hopping" from one stream that is parallel to another.

Maybe our

This is one of my favorite poems and I constantly refer to it. Since we can all agree that nothing in the universe is ever created or destroyed, our being is recycled along with other beings' being. Maybe we are not looking for our soul mate but soul mates. Maybe those we hold near and dear are our soul mates. What does the term 'soul mate' mean anyway?

I believe that we are composed of a whole bunch of molecules of every being you can imagine that once existed on this planet, and through death, our being is mixed and reforms us as different individuals. What I'm getting at is: we are at ease and experience a kind of closeness with certain people because we used to be One.

Tattoos & Relationships

"Beauty is Pain"

So says Bruce. What's the point of living if you don't have something to live for?

Thucydides

Remember the battle between Athens and Spartans?

Well, after my philosophy class, this got me thinking about justice versus survival.

First of all, when would people put survival before justice? What about justice before survival?

Which one would you fight for? Something that is right? Well then, what IS considered right? Intuition? Environment?

Which would you choose?

Men VS Women

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Forever Young

Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is won

Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders we're getting in tune
The music's played by the mad men
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever young

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
Why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We let them come true
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?

Time & Timing

Why is it that whenever something that is so wonderful, so splendid - a snow globe per se - can go awfully wrong just in the blink of an eye? For instance, a child playing a snow globe and it slips through her fingers.

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about.

Here's a story; the story of my life:
Girl likes boy #1, boy #2 likes girl, boy #1 just got out of a relationship and is still recovering, boy #2 likes girl but girl doesn't want to ruin the friendship. On top of that, boy #2 is way too far for girl's interest. Or needs.

I hate time. I really do.

PS Girl #2 is a pimp. Yes, she has 5 boys. Seriously.

Stupid Boys and Stupid Boy Penises

I really need to vent. I feel so extremely naked because I can't express.
Dancing is an escape.
Singing is my escape.
Writing is an escape.
You were my escape.

I guess I missed out on the part where I was supposed to take note on emergency exits,
Just in case there's a fucking road block at the entrance.

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Would you agree?
Some things you can't see with your eyes,
Only your heart.
Would you agree?
Some things you can't feel with your skin,
Only your heart.
So tell me,
How can you walk away,
Leaving me stranded,
Wasting away.
It's a long way down
When your hopes are as high as mountains.

Webster wouldn't be able to define
define the way I feel about you.
Maybe Heaven's not the paradise you go to when you die
But the very moment in life when you are actually alive.
I guess I missed out on the part where I was supposed to take note on emergency exits,
And now it's too late
Because you've drowned me in empty promises.

Tree, Leaf and Wind

"What is the reason behind Leaf's departure? Is it Wind's pursuit or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"

"It's not as if Wind doesn't howl...it's because Leaf never wanted to leave Tree."

Maybe, I fear that I won't stay faithful.

Maybe, I fear that commitment is too much for me to handle.

What if a lot of dedication still isn't enough?

How much of enough is enough?

What if, I lost all my faith in relationships?

And trust?

Will I ever be able to really look behind the past?

None is certain,

I am still waiting for the day I can answer all this.

with a smile.

匹配的人

妳對戀愛十分自信，抱著甯缺莫濫的態度，情願獨守空帷，直至有合適的人出現為止。
在讀書時代妳是個勤學的好學生，亦喜歡做學生領袖，由於妳性格較剛強好勝，因此有些男性會有點害怕妳，妳有時亦會太認真，霸道，且醋意太濃，這對妳的戀愛造成一定阻滯，能和妳相配的男人，必須英俊，聰明且很受人愛戴，是個鋒頭很勁的人。
最匹配的星座：巨蟹座，天蠍座和雙魚座
最佳男伴的生日：8，17，26。

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Rollins' R-Journalist Application - summer adventure essay

Please write 500 to 1,000 words about your summer adventures (this will be featured as your first entry) and submit it along with this application and a recent photograph (head and shoulders).

My summer adventure of 2008 started with the following words: I became what I am today at the age of twelve, on a frigid overcast day in the winter of 1975...This summer, my journey to the Middle East unfolds as I travel in a time capsule, growing 3 decades old with the land with vibrant culture. I experienced Amir's guilt, Hassan's idealistic sacrificial and loyal love, Baba's uncertainty, Soraya's courage, Rahim's love, and the idea of religion, power of friendship and the unbreakable bond of blood. From Khaled Hosseini's The Kite Runner, I realized that my summer adventure is really another journey of self-growth.

Amir and Baba has never believed in God the way other Muslims did. In fact, they don't even pray. However, near the end of the novel when Sohrab comes into the picture, Amir begins to pray in a religion he once had no faith in. This reminds me of a quote, "Don't pray when it rains, if you don't pray when it shines." The Kite Runner fully depicts this statement and it struck me because I do it. I realize that I am guilty of this. More often than not, I only pray in times of need, hoping that God will be there to fix my problems or rekindle a broken relationship. I pray for a sick friend, the starving, the less fortunate and promise to give back to the society in return. We pray for ourselves when we need something. Even though there is nothing wrong with that, but I can't help but wonder...what does He get in return?

It seems rather common to pray in times of trouble but as time goes by and the gap in our life is mended, we forget to count our blessings. I realized a while ago even though it is good to pray for the starving or the sick, why not also do something about it? By donating food to organizations, visit and stay the sick - It is easy to say a few quick words to God, but it shows true character to show an act of kindness. I believe that eventually Amir's redemption has helped him realize that he needs to take action aside from asking help from the omnipotent.

Just like the way Rahim Khan's heartaches upon seeing Amir fight for Baba's love, I feel the same distress. Despite fate and its unexpected twist and turns, I understood the tremendous influence that everything that surrounds us has upon every aspect of our lives. Parenting, for example, is a way to really screw up a kid for the rest of their lives. Abuse in all forms, neglect, too much praise, not enough praise, too much discipline, not enough discipline - parenting in general establishes the "core beliefs" with which kids view the world and themselves. Such "core beliefs" are so "core" that individuals begin to see them not as beliefs nor as something that was learned, but as a form of truth or reality. These are the beliefs from where we get our "attitude" or "outlook on life" and the scary part is that it all starts with those influences of parenting. The Kite Runner is about two brothers, Amir and Hassan, who share an unbreakable binding vine of kinship despite all their differences, reared by a father who loved them differently. Without negative "core beliefs" impeding, or in other words, if one knows one could not fail, what would one strive for?

There was a point in the novel that helped me realize the immense impact of attitude on life. Attitude, as it seems to me, is more important than the past, the education, the money, the circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. The impact of attitude is especially apparent between Assef and those around him as he oppresses the others with his status and wealth. As a "proud" Taliban member, Assef executes God's will as he torments the Afghans. But what for? What I have learned at this point is obvious, there is a little bit of Amir, Hassan and Assef in all of us and it is up to us to reign our attitude and emotions.

As the story is gradually brought to an end, Amir’s narration shows raw emotions, he waddles on in his life through guilt. Hosseini continues to justify the hatred and frustration readers feel toward Amir by atoning for his sins as he runs Sohrab’s kite. The patience and love he has for Hassan’s son effaced into thin air towards the end of book, showing me that everyone deserves “a way to be good again.” Knowing that loveable Hassan would have happily forgiven Amir without hesitation, I learn that I am not one to judge but I am here to forgive and to redeem. And here’s to my family, my friends and everyone who has been there for me through thick and thin: “for you, a thousand times over.”

(photo editting credit Kory Eylmann)

Rollins' R-Journalist Application

What makes you want to be an R-Journalist?
Ever since I first accessed Amazon.com, I remember that I was thrilled that the website enables user rating and comment for every product. I found this service very helpful as it allows the next consumer to get an idea of how this product stands on the market. For instance, if I were considering purchasing a laptop but still debating between the Dell model and Hewlett-Packard (HP) model, I can read the comments other users posted and compare both models. In a way, my Amazon experience reflects what I hope I can bring to prospective Rollins students: an honest, first-hand experience.

Please list student activities in which you participate.
As of now, I have yet to even set foot on campus! This means I have a lot of things to see, and places to go. However, I certainly wish to continue signing human rights petitions for Amnesty International. I am considering joining WPRK Radio, R-TV or Sandspur as I am striving towards a place in the communications field (broadcast journalism) in the future. All in all, I am just keeping my mind and options open to opportunities that will help me connect with the Rollins family.

What one quality do you think makes you best able to relate to potential Rollins students?
I am an understanding individual who can naturally see in a different perspective in any given situation. This allows me to genuinely express my opinion and give honest advice. Understanding different situations in many points of views enable me to easily relate to Rollins students because I can understand the frustration they experience when it comes to making a decision of where to call "home".

2008-09 R-Journalists will be trained to use Moveable Type software, a blogging tool, to submit their own entries and photos online. Entries will then be approved. Do you feel comfortable with computer blogging software and that you will be able to learn it to complete your assignments?
I am definitely up to the challenge to learn something new! I am confident that I will manage using Moveable Type for my blogging assignments; I am not exactly a shy individual and I won't hesitate to ask for help if I am stuck.

Being selected as an R-Journalist is a privilege, as well as a responsibility. R-Journalists are expected to complete at least 10 entries, no less than 500 words each, and submit three to four photos with each entry. Additionally, you may receive feedback and questions via e-mail from prospective students, parents, alumni or others. How do you plan to ensure you are able to fulfill your obligation, should you be chosen?
It is very likely for me to update my blog on a weekly basis. Aside the regular updates, special occasions such as scouting a good restaurant near campus or a home coming game, an extra update is to be expected.

Maybe our hearts were next in line & maybe everything breaks sometime

Maybe people were right about the saying: The reason people hold on to memories is because they're the only thing that doesn't change when everything else changes.

Summer..

Sun. Check. Beach. Check. Ice cream. Romance. Check. Check.

Why am I complaining then? Perhaps I'm afraid of falling too hard.

What if...?

I guess I'm being paranoid. Yet again.

The thing is, how do you know when someone really likes you? What if you're merely a replacement of what they can't have?

I can't help but listen to that small voice in my head, that lingering foul past.

Ever since my father's departure from my life and settling with my half-sister, S and my breakup because he realized he likes our mutual friend, the guy who introduced us...Maybe shunning off feelings and cutting ties with emotions is the only way you can prevent yourself from hurting in this world.

Ha. If only I could just simply rip out my heart along with other irrationalities in me and bury it somewhere far, far away. Perhaps it'd be possible that one might be fearless.

After all, for once in my life, I'm scared. Terrified even. What if I'm only the second best? The replacement.

So...somewhere in the middle, I'm deciding...

You're only young once...go for it or better off to be safe than sorry

Seems to be a rather obvious choice, huh?