Love the way you love me.

It's nearly 6 am. At least in another good 30 minutes it would be...

I am lying in bed, thinking.
Of nothing else but you.
You make my bad day good and
my good day better.
If I should describe our relationship
It would, no doubt, be the ocean and the shore.
The constant attraction between us keeps us near each other
and we would never stop feeling that desire to be close.
Closer.

十二星座厲害在哪

牡羊座
【工作能力】。牡羊座的人可以開創局面不畏艱難，越是人家說他做不到的，他越會去挑戰成扔馱H家看。

金牛座
【工作能力】。金牛座雖然不會像牡羊座一樣直接下戰帖，但是一定會用他自己的方法很快的克服困難給別人看。

雙子座
【聰明博學】。雙子座的人會認為別人都是構造簡單的笨蛋，只有自己才是構造複雜的聰明人，他常常會自己分裂成兩個腳色，自己跟自己辯論，所以基本上很多事情都已經想過了，所以可以很自豪。

巨蟹座
【心思細膩】。巨蟹座的人很了解異性在想什麼，感受性很敏銳，行動會讓人家覺得很貼心。

獅子座
【多才多藝】。獅子座的人通常都是說鬥唱樣樣精，所以小時後通常都會是才藝班上的第一名，而且他表現能力很好，天生風花雪月的東西就是很厲害。

處女座
【攢錢手段】。處女座的人會開創他的感官在現實生活當中，他會去發現別人的需要，然後會從中發現一些不完美且值得再去補強的地方，而這些都是商機處處，所以不管處女座的人本身執行能力如何，可是他的想法值得參考。

天秤座
【異性魅力】。天秤座的人到哪裡，都會要讓旁邊的人知道他人緣很好，人脈非常的廣，誰都會買他的帳，很罩得住，到哪裡都受歡迎，桃花運也是他會在同性中炫耀的事情。

天蠍座
【異性魅力】。天蠍座的人是屬於電力超強魅力無法擋型，到哪裡都要當最受歡迎的人，一定要把其他人的鋒頭壓下去。

射手座
【聰明博學】。射手座的人表面傻傻的，其實都是裝出來的，他很愛看書，如果認真的跟他引經據典的話，根本都辯不倒他，搞不好有時候還會來一段詩詞把人家嚇一大跳。

魔羯座
【攢錢手段】。魔羯座的人是屬於計劃高手型，而且他是屬於計劃很久，一次出擊就要成央A他不打沒把握的仗。

水瓶座
【心思細膩】。水瓶座的人心思細膩是在全方位，在所有的事情上，他可以觀察人家，而且條路分明的分析出人家想做什麼。

雙魚座
【多才多藝】。雙魚座的人天生藝術細胞很發達，只要學到對的東西，潛能就會發揮到極至，到令人驚艷的地步。

Tattoo Ideas

Cho Ku Rei [Choke-koo-ray]

This symbol is used when you need to increase the power of Reiki energy. Takata Sensei called this the "Invocation of Universal Power."

Drawing Cho Ku Reiki in the counterclockwise position "increases" the energy of Reiki. Drawing Cho Ku Rei in the clockwise position "decreases" the energy of the client. Be careful which you choose to do.

The importance of parenting even when you aren't a parent.

What I've discovered over spring break, is the tremendous influence that everything that surrounds us has upon every aspect of our lives. Amazing what some time off studying can do huh? Self-enlightenment is wonderful. Parenting for example, is a way to really screw up a kid for the rest of their lives. Abuse in all forms, neglect, too much praise, not enough praise, too much discipline, not enough discipline - parenting in general establishes the "core beliefs" with which kids (or rather I should just say PEOPLE) view the world and themselves. Such "core beliefs" are so "core" that we see them not as beliefs nor as something that was learned, but as a truth or a reality. These are the beliefs from where we get our "attitude" or "outlook on life" and the scary part is: it all starts with those influences of parenting.

If one were to think "life is a struggle" or "I'm powerless" such a person would find themselves impeded when it comes to difficulties in life because they feel like they are incapable by nature. We talk ourselves in to much of our anxiety by self-criticism, what-if thinking, or even perfectionist thinking and all this "self-talk" begins with our basic core beliefs of how we see ourselves and life.

Parenting, thus, becomes a heavy responsibility that I don't know if I'd ever be able to take on given what I've seen. But what I've realized is all of us are influences because of our interactions with our environment and those that are in it with us; we influence and in turn are influenced. In a way, we are parenting them and vice-versa. Society parents its people, whether it be a controlling authoritative government that strips its citizens of their freedoms and makes them believe they are incapable without a leader, or perhaps a liberal democracy that empowers the man and encourages each individual's freedom of choice.

I keep thinking back to Blue Scholar's lyrics, "eyes up to the sky she sighs 'i need nobody. true indeed sister, but you still need everybody because we hardly know ourselves if we know nobody else." For the longest time I didn't really agree, with some unfamiliarity with ourselves without other people is in a way the explanation of us as a product of all those influences even though we have the CONTROL (which is important) ultimately of how we react to such influences. We only grow, discover, and develop ourselves by reacting to the influences of life (the environment) - by society, by parents, and by people around us.

We've been parenting our whole lives. In a sense we've always been responsible for everyone around us and thus, in turn responsible and in control of ourselves.

With that, my last a thought: Without negative "core beliefs" impeding you, or in other words, if you knew you could not fail, what would you strive for?

I Like Where We Are

I love God, Jesus, and the trinity's distinct as well as inseparable relationship. I believe in Him but I am not a Christian. I may be Buddhist too because I believe in self-enlightenment. When I went to church and heard that god is not the external authority figure, which is by the way, something I've somehow associated him as, but that he is in you as you are the temple of the holy ghost. Perhaps what I'm suggesting is ludicrous, but maybe in a way that is the same as SELF-enlightenment. From Evan Almighty, Morgan Freeman or "God" says to Joan (Evans wife)

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

God gives us these opportunities to better ourselves but it is ultimately your will to choose and grow from such choices. To me this is, in a way, SELF determination in a less aggressive sense. I think about religion so much and I always somehow end up no where, believing I could never encounter a balance or realization of which story (or in another sense, which religion,) is best told because they all sound so good wen I'm hearing it. Somehow I have this ability to appreciate each song/story/perspective and that's why sometimes I find myself unable to be mad at anyone and unable to decide what is right and what is wrong.

Perhaps the song G.O.D. (Gaining Ones Definition) - Common says it best .

Some say that God is Black and the Devil's White
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what's right
I fight, with myself in the ring of doubt and fear
The rain ain't gone, but I can still see clear

Because ultimately devil represents the bad the unappreciative unaware and God is what's right. He, she or it is what drives you. In a way,

Some say that God is ______ and the Devil's ______
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what's right.

I left the words blank because I wanted to make a point that it doesn't matter what you say after that if your god is Buddha, Allah, or God and the trinity.... without the story and the label it is ultimately the same drive; stories and labels just help people understand or tap access to the ideas or beliefs or decision makers as I like to think of them. I love this song so I really recommend listening to it for the lyrics since so many underground artists have proven the lyrics are deep and can really enlighten a situation giving you an insightful perspective.

I feel like all my thinking is "fight[ing] with myself in the ring of doubt and fear" and even though I haven't come to a set conclusion ("The rain aint gone") I really can "still see clear." I'm okay with this. I like where we are.

I feel so foolish thinking and trying to understand and absorb everything around me when I'm around people who don't because there's tension and expectations and closedness. Just a deeper understanding of yourself and others - enlightenment realizing the god in you and in others - opens up those blocked out obstructions to understanding of any perspective. The connection you feel with anything around you is great. It is because everything is made by god and all has god in them that you are connected. you won't discriminate or hold bad judgments as a grudge and won't even get mad as easily. After all, being mad is so bad for your health, because its not relaxing and understanding, this brings peace instead of war. Those who interpret God or Allah or Buddha as DIVIDING, classifying, and separating people by specifying an allegiance (like when answering questions from strangers regarding religious affiliation) you are SADLY mistaken (all, of course, is just my own opinion) because God ultimately should be an understanding unifying connecting loving force not one that divides......right? and I say force because it drives people toward where they should be or where would benefit them ultimately. one of my most admired friends, rob, once tried to explain to me how he felt. that god is the realization of something bigger than yourself. in his terms god is that realization of the sanctity of your choices, the sanctity of others and things around you because you are ultimately connected in a bigger way than yourself.

Understanding and wisdom became the rhythm that I played to
And became a slave to master self
A rich man is one with knowledge, happiness and his health

My mind had dealt with the books of Zen, Tao the lessons
Koran and the Bible, to me they all vital
And got truth within 'em, gotta read them boys
You just can't skim 'em, different branches of belief
But one root that stem 'em, but people of the venom try to trim 'em
And use religion as an emblem
When it should be a natural way of life
Who am I or they to say to whom you pray ain't right
That's who got you doin right and got you this far
Whether you say "in Jesus name" or Hum do Allah
Long as you know it's a bein' that's supreme to you
You let that show towards others in the things you do

When I feel myself in pain or facing a hardship I feel myself in the presence of the god in me and outside of me in other people and things and the world. Sometimes the irony in trying to fully understanding god will be so much work that it would be tedious and such a long drawl that it is almost a state of almost death. The amount of intense pain I feel when I try so hard to understand. It is painfully challenging but I crave to know and understand; it is in a way a crazy drug of bettering myself no matter what way.

When things get rough and each day is more dreary after the next, I am reminded that life goes on and some how it is alright to keep "happy" as a memory. After all, we are given by God the amazing ability to survive and adapt because life DOES keep going on. We don't have to keep the memory in the present because memories can be what memories should be. In a way, there's a beauty in the way that all works out.Those feelings and people and stories remain perfect in whatever they were - unchangeable. If we can't change the moment since each moment we pass is permanent. The beauty of the past and of life and time in general is in the perfection of its preservation without biasness. Good, bad, positive, negative - what happened happened right? and we're still moving forward! Unalterable, and somehow it's okay that way.

I like where we are.

Snow Patrol - The Planets Bend Between Us

The winter's marked the earth
it's floored with frozen glass
you slip into my arms
and you quickly correct yourself

your freezing speech bubbles
seem to hold your words aloft
i want the smoky clouds of laughter
to swim about me forever more

(Chorus)
i will race you to the waterside
and from the edge of ireland shout out loud
so they could hear it in america
it's all for you

the shells crack under our shoes
like punctuation points
the planets bend between us
and a hundred million suns and stars

the sea filled in the silence
before you said those words
and now even in the darkness
i can see how happy you are

(Chorus)
i will race you to the waterside
and from the edge of ireland shout out loud
so they could hear it in america
it's all for you

(5x)
it's all for you